I worship the god of Embarrassment. Not in the same way I worship Jehovah. For I worship Jehovah in praise and great joy and love and gratitude and rest. But I burn incense on the altar of Embarrassment in great fear, so as to appease his spirits, to pacify him a little longer that I might have partial relief. And yet Jesus said, you cannot serve two masters. For you HAVE TO love one and hate the other. You cannot serve both God and Mammon. But I don’t serve Mammon; I serve Embarrassment. And that HAS to change! For right now I’m not open to doing ANYTHING God tells me to do, only those things which don’t conflict with my previous commitments to Embarrassment. And so I bind the hand of God from healing this suffering world. Just so I can live in an illusory comfort zone, hiding behind my rituals and tradition, trying to worship a man-made idol.